So, this morning started grumpily, littlest man was up at least 6 times in the night (instead of his usual 2 – yes I know I’m lucky he sleeps so well normally!) so I was pretty tired (understatement 😴)
I was then reminded by middle boy how long it is until we go on our holidays (to the exact number of days – seriously?!) and started having a panic about saving up (or lack of 😬) etc, so it’s safe to say by the time I’d done the school run and spent 2 hours cleaning whilst rocking a grumpy baby I was pretty fed up…
I came home and sat down for 5 minutes peace and saw a few things posted online telling me that it’s “international happiness day”…. so instead of using my few minutes peace to sit and eat biscuits and feel sorry for myself I decided to pull myself together, stop being grumpy and focus on the things in my life that make me happy. I’m counting my blessings once more.
first off has to be my children of course – they are the reason I get up every day, the reason I live and breathe, the reason I smile even when I don’t feel like smiling (in fact ESPECIALLY when I don’t feel like smiling) they are my life, my world, and even when they drive me absolutely round the bend and push my patience to the limit (which to be completely honest is most days!!) they have all brought immense happiness to my life and continue to do so every single day.
of course I’d be lying if I said they make me happy all of the time, there are days/times when they can reduce me to tears (the biggest boys at least – though I’m sure in time smallest boy will develop the ability to do that too 🙈) but that’s what being mum is all about isn’t it? taking the rough with the smooth, being that person they can take all their frustration and anger out on safely, and the happiness far outweighs anything else.
Watching them together is what makes me the happiest at the moment, watching the love the bigger ones have for their baby brother is amazing and makes all the difficult moments fade into the distance, and seeing smallest boys face light up when he sees them after they’ve spent all day at school is priceless.
So my rubbish nights sleep seems much less terrible now, when I am privileged enough to wake up to 3 amazing little (and not so little) men every morning – this time last year I wouldn’t have even dreamt that this was possible!
my long suffering husband should probably come next, although he drives me almost as mad as the kids do some days there’s no one I’d rather have by my side on this incredible journey (i could go on and on about how amazing he is – in fact that could be a whole blog post in itself – but if he happens to read this id never hear the end of it so I’ll keep it short 😉)
he works A LOT to provide for us all, so that I can stay home with the kids and for that I’ll be forever grateful. He makes sacrifices for us all, all of the time, and he is the most amazing daddy to our 2 smallest boys (and my stepdaughter) and a brilliant stepdad to biggest boy too.
He’s been my rock for the past 7 1/2 years and brought so much happiness into my life….our little family may be put together differently than most but it’s bloody amazing and is the main source of happiness in my life.
His love and support have had a huge impact on my parenting choices this time round, and my confidence, and I really am enjoying every single moment…. (I’d better stop now before hubby gets too big headed!)
my incredible family have to come next – I talk a lot about my “little family” and my “bigger family”, I am so incredibly lucky to be so close to them and equally our children are so lucky to be growing up with so many close family members. I am told frequently by many people how lucky I am to have my parents so close by and how lucky our children are being surrounded by grandparents etc…. I have to admit that to me that’s just normal…. I grew up a few doors down from my grandparents, and after my grandad died when I was only young my nan came and lived with us, i was so incredibly close to her, and I am incredibly grateful that our children have the opportunity to be so close to their extended family too.
We are blessed with 6 beautiful nieces too, 6 cousins for our children to grow up alongside, each of them bringing even more happiness (and often chaos!) into our lives. And a handful of close friends who I love dearly and have been there throughout the good and the bad, I really couldn’t ask for much more.
My morning stress about saving for holidays seems a little silly now too – we are lucky that we even get to go on holiday – the opportunity to spend a whole week together as a family having fun and making even more memories – memories that the kids (and us grown ups) will laugh and smile about for many many years – money seems pretty insignificant in all that (and everyone likes beans on toast anyway – I’m sure we can all survive off that for a few weeks whilst we’re saving up right?!)
I’ve rambled on for far too long now (and wasted the whole of smallest mans nap writing this instead of doing anything productive 😂)
Basically, today I’ve realised I have a lot in my life to be happy about. Those things that make me unhappy and grumpy are pretty insignificant and sometimes (far too often) I waste too much time and energy stressing about the little things… things that are either insignificant or that I have no control over. So my mission today is to make more of an effort to embrace happiness and let the little things go….. (and go buy more beans 😂) let’s see how long it lasts!